Bucket List

I'm starting a list. I guess I need this. I need to have something to look forward to, to work towards, to dream of, a reason to get out of bed every day. Since I lost Preston, I've seemed to have lost my way... maybe it was long before Preston but it's much worse now. I don't get out of bed for days at a time, I never remember what day it is even on important days, I don't sleep, I am sick to my stomach all the time when I think about going outside, my life has become non existent. The only escape I've had from this pain that never seems to subside is in the movies. Which is what brings me to my list. I am going to start writing down all the things that I want to do before I die, and keep a running tally of what I accomplish along the way. I'm dying here in this room, in this bed, just sleeping my life away being unhappy all the time. Preston wouldn't want this for me. I don't want this for me, but I don't know how to change it... so this is what I'm doing. Here goes.

My Bucket List
- Create a bucket list. - Complete. (gotta start somewhere)
- Quit smoking. - Complete
- See Graceland during Elvis week.
- Lose Weight so I'm happy with myself.
- Learn Taekwando
- Gamble with a lot of money
- Skydive
- Touch soil in all 50 states.
- See NYC.
- Learn how to fence
- Help my siblings accomplish their dreams.
- Tour Italy.
- Be an important member in society.
- Own and RV and all those fun toys.
- Witness a miracle
- Write something that inspires someone.
- Adopt a child.
- Laugh until I pee myself.
- Take a cruise to Australia.
- Discover something.
- Be a grandmother.
- Take one big family vacation.
- Find someone who takes my breath away.
- Learn to drive a motorcycle.
- Get Married.
- See at least 1 of the 7 wonders of the world.

... That's all I've thought of so far... I'll add more later.